A few of you have been asking me to update this blog site. Sheesh – ok – ok – ok.
Truth is you all know I have been in a crappy mood since the mid-November.
A break-up, the holidays (I hate the holidays) and a move (which was great – except for the actual MOVING part.)
You’ve all heard about it and you all know the story so why write about it?
I’ve had nothing nice to say.
But finally, about a week and a half ago, my icy attitude took a turn toward the warmer side.
Finally, from the cozy warmth of my new apartment (which is FABULOUS!) I felt the tingle.
I remember the moment well; it was New Year’s Eve and I was off work. It was the 2nd morning I had woken in MY place. I brewed a pot of coffee and sat at my computer chatting with the girls. This is what I’d waited 6 months for. It was peaceful. AnnaMarie was at work and we had decided to have lunch.
I picked her up from the library and we headed to 3rd St. Stuff.
AnnaMarie.
This woman . . . I could try to explain her but there are no words. Well, maybe a few. She’s one of those people you love with your whole being. She can melt a bad mood with her hugs, lift your heart with her voice and fill your belly with potatoes. Almost immediately the words came from her mouth, “Girl, it is SOOOO good to see you happy.” Initially I thought – “Well, hell!!! I slept in, it’s New Year’s Eve, I have a great new place, I’m NOT at work, I have a latté in front of me and one of my dearest friends! If this won’t put me in a good mood I may as well dissolve into the concrete!”
But I knew what she meant.
And I know as well as anyone that happiness is a choice. We make it every moment of every day.
It was a long month – December.
There are still things that I miss with my whole heart every day . . . but I missed me more.